Previously Posted by The Luvly Lady Linda 2-18-09- Embrace
It is dark again.
I close my eyes and see your face. I want for nothing more than to just be near you all the time. I find you often at night. In slumber, you are mine and nobody else’s. I take you in my arms and your face changes. When my hand brushes your cheek, your eyes open and you see me in true light. My flaws never frighten you and you take me unconditionally. The longer we talk, the more complete I become. But in one swift moment, I open my eyes and you are gone.
This pain is familiar; this longing I feel. She’s been with me since birth and we’ve even become great friends. She’s with me in the darkness and never leaves me lonely. I reach for you and instead it is she who embraces me. I’ve learned to accept her as a part of me. There are times when I try to leave her in my past. I move forward to try to stand alone. But it never fails. As I trip over the broken pieces of my heart, it is always She who catches me. She reminds me that she’s not a stranger and we hold hands as we walk forward. She tells me that one day she will leave me and that it will be a day to celebrate. I am convinced her parting will coincide with your arrival, but she tries to convince me daily that I am wrong.
There are times we enjoy you together. As you’re on stage doing what you do best, she holds her breath just as I do and only exhales at the end of your sets. She’s not cruel. When you talk to me, she allows me to open my heart and accept your friendship. But as you walk away from me, she takes my hand again and leads me to the bar. We enjoy a drink or two and she reminds me that you’re not coming back. She tries to be compassionate but is not able to, so instead she allows me to silence her with a few more drinks.
She’s my friend. She links me to my heart and I need her because sometimes she is the only reminder I have that my heart still feels. It is not broken beyond repair and will one day be full with the love that someone else will feel for me. She gives me faith that one day I will be able to survive without her.
But tonight…as I think of you so far away -eyes closed to who I truly am and unable to love me- I embrace her back.
I close my eyes and see your face. I want for nothing more than to just be near you all the time. I find you often at night. In slumber, you are mine and nobody else’s. I take you in my arms and your face changes. When my hand brushes your cheek, your eyes open and you see me in true light. My flaws never frighten you and you take me unconditionally. The longer we talk, the more complete I become. But in one swift moment, I open my eyes and you are gone.
This pain is familiar; this longing I feel. She’s been with me since birth and we’ve even become great friends. She’s with me in the darkness and never leaves me lonely. I reach for you and instead it is she who embraces me. I’ve learned to accept her as a part of me. There are times when I try to leave her in my past. I move forward to try to stand alone. But it never fails. As I trip over the broken pieces of my heart, it is always She who catches me. She reminds me that she’s not a stranger and we hold hands as we walk forward. She tells me that one day she will leave me and that it will be a day to celebrate. I am convinced her parting will coincide with your arrival, but she tries to convince me daily that I am wrong.
There are times we enjoy you together. As you’re on stage doing what you do best, she holds her breath just as I do and only exhales at the end of your sets. She’s not cruel. When you talk to me, she allows me to open my heart and accept your friendship. But as you walk away from me, she takes my hand again and leads me to the bar. We enjoy a drink or two and she reminds me that you’re not coming back. She tries to be compassionate but is not able to, so instead she allows me to silence her with a few more drinks.
She’s my friend. She links me to my heart and I need her because sometimes she is the only reminder I have that my heart still feels. It is not broken beyond repair and will one day be full with the love that someone else will feel for me. She gives me faith that one day I will be able to survive without her.
But tonight…as I think of you so far away -eyes closed to who I truly am and unable to love me- I embrace her back.
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